Day 1- My 40 Day Journey
I feel a little bit like I’ve
been wandering in the wilderness for 40 years…
well, maybe more like 2 years. Walking in circles,
continually thinking I’ve found my way out just
to end up right back where I started. Occasionally
the scenery looks different and I think I’ve
finally found the path out, but I eventually realize
that I just wasn’t paying attention the first
time I passed it.
I can be a very stubborn, determined
person always asking questions of God, but most of
the time failing to wait and listen for the answers.
Sometimes I think I’m saying “yes”
to what God is asking of me, but it turns out I’ve
been warping my “yes” into an “if,
then” statement. Who am I to put conditions
on what the Creator of the universe wants of me? He
personally paid a ransom for my life- and yours- and
I’m trying to call the shots? I’ve been
trying to tell Him what’s best for me, or better
yet, sometimes I’m trying to tell Him what’s
best for Him. Like I even have a clue as to what that
might be!
Basically, I’m tired of being
a spectator and complainer on where my life should
be going. I’m ready to get in the game of life.
I want to be a participant. But to do that, I have
to start listening to the Coach (God). I have to trust
that my Coach knows what’s best for me. I have
to believe that my Coach’s plan will bring out
my full potential. I know my Coach goes through the
ups and downs with me. I know my Coach doesn’t
like to see my hurt or disappointed, but I know He
will always be there to encourage me, pick me up when
I fall, and help me get back in the game.
I’ve made the decision to start
listening to my Coach because I’m ready to play.
One of my biggest weaknesses in my walk with God is
my daily quiet time. So to hold myself accountable
to my daily Bible reading and prayer time, I will
post about it on here everyday for the next 40 days.
My only goal is to grow a deeper relationship with
God.
Father God,
Thank You for the conviction in my heart of the need
and desire to know You more deeply. Thank You for
knowing me and my needs better than I know them. Lord,
I ask that You guide and direct my heart and mind
over the next 40 days of this journey to discover
a deeper love and passion for You. Please help and
encourage me to trust You when You ask me to do things
I may not want to do. I hardly ever understand the
path you make me walk, but “Your word is a lamp
to my feet and a light to my path” (Psalm 119:105).
Lord illuminate that next step, and help me to be
courageous and faithful to take that step you show
me. Thank You Lord, that You already know how the
story ends, and I can rest and stand firm in the Author
and Finisher of my faith.
In the name of Jesus Christ I pray, Amen.
