09 Jul Mommy’s Coming Soon
Patience is not a natural gift of mine. I’m guessing it may not be yours either as we seem to live in such an “instant gratification” culture.
My patience has grown better over the years, but still God is clearly working on this in me.
He has taught me to be slower to speak and quicker to listen. This has helped me understand people better and learn to love them where they are, not where I think they should be.
By blessing me with three amazing children very close in age, He has shown me through the noise, the sleep deprivation and the emotional roller coaster how to take a deep breath when I want to scream, how to focus on what is truly important, and how to let go of my own ego and the things that really don’t matter in the end.
None of my children have come to me easily. I couldn’t always see or appreciate the difficult roads that God navigated us through while we were on them. But now that I look back, I can see His timing, His readying, His refining, and His absolutely beautiful handiwork that has built our family.
This past May marked 4 years that we have been waiting to bring home our fourth child, Dakaia.
To act tough, wave it off and tell you it hasn’t been too bad or that I’ve been distracted with my other three would not only be lying, but it would be denying me a chance to share my heart with you- the pain and the joy.
For three and a half years, adopting a baby from Ethiopia looked like paperwork and a pipe dream. Then one October afternoon, we got the call. And we saw her face.
This video is of our family opening up the email with her picture for the first time.
Since first seeing her sweet face, we have sporadically received a handful of pictures. In the nine months that we have been matched with her, I have only seen her in five fleeting moments of her life. In two of those updates, we only received one single picture.
I’ve watched my baby go from bald to a full head of hair. I know she can sit up. I don’t know how many teeth she has. I have never seen her smile.
When one of my kids wakes up in the middle of the night, I wonder if Dakaia wakes up in the middle of the night crying, too. I wonder if anyone comes to pick her up. I wonder if she gets enough to eat. I wonder what she likes to eat. I wonder if she likes the nannies at her orphanage. I wonder if she knows she has a Mommy and Daddy and brother and sisters that love her very much and have been praying for her since before she was conceived.
If you follow me on social media, you may know that at the end of April, Ethiopia suspended their intercountry adoptions. My friend Kristin and I did a Facebook Live video about it that you can check out here. We had technical difficulties so we finished the last few minutes in a part 2 you can check out here.
Thankfully, so many of you rallied with us and called your senators and congressman, that they wrote a letter to the Prime Minister in Ethiopia and things began moving again in June!
While many adoptions have been moved forward and kids are beginning to come home, ours has hit a roadblock. It’s not over, but it’s fallen in a crack and we’re going to have to spend even more time digging it out.
In the midst of the tears, the frustration and the painful moments, I trust that God is firmly in control. As much as I worry and doubt, I also have peace and comfort that He is moving, changing and growing all of us through this process.
“And not only that, but we also glory in tribulations, knowing that tribulation produces perseverance; and perseverance, character; and character, hope. Now hope does not disappoint, because the love of God has been poured out in our hearts by the Holy Spirit who was given to us.” – Romans 5:3-5
Please pray with me as we endure this journey to bring our little daughter home. Pray that God moves the hearts and minds of the people involved to action. Pray that He moves swiftly. Pray over Dakaia, her orphanage, her nannies, and her friends living there with her. Pray that the Ethiopian government continues to finalize all of the adoptions that they have set in motion, including ours. Pray that the government officials would recognize the dire need of orphans in Ethiopia, that they would not make purely political decisions but that they would see these children as the blessings they are and help them find families, domestic and foreign if need be.
Sleep tight my little love bug. Mommy’s coming soon.